An Adventure with Jesus for a Lifetime

My writings from my visit in August:

Jesus's love language is obedience. The scriptures say that He loves obedience over Sacrifice. He loves those who love Him and obey Him. This was my invitation from Jesus to come with Him to Germany. This invitation to come along with Him as He is holding my hand is truly an invitation into knowing Jesus Christ in a deep and intimate way. I am sitting on the plane about to read My All for Him by Basilea Schlink, listening to “Good Shepherd” by UPPERROOM knowing that He has ordained this time before the foundations of the world. He is our Shepherd that prepares a table before us to dine with Him. He has a jealous love for us and He will stop at nothing to have more of us. If many of you didn’t know, this trip came to be through two years of holding true to a precious word Jesus shared with me and I have been praying over it waiting for His perfect timing. Over 2 years ago on a Sunday at Jesus Image, very quickly after surrendering everything to Him at the end of November, the Bethel team came and a known Pastor from the church was welcomed up to the stage. Pastor Michael asked him to pray and the first thing that he said was “ if you feel called to the nation's, stand.” Without any idea of what that even meant at the time my legs shot up and I was standing without even thinking of it. When I responded heat fell through my whole body from the top of my head to the bottom of my toes. I wanted to sit back down wondering in my head why I was even standing. I had never heard or felt a nation from the Lord nor knew why but just stood there welcoming Jesus. I heard in my heart “Europe” after hearing this impressed on my heart; a flowing of tears and weeping resumed for this nation. I was experiencing the Lord's heart for a group of people for the first time. I tried to stop and come out of what He was doing and a precious friend of God was prompted to pray for me “that He wasn’t done yet and that there was more” This pursued a jealous love for Him for the nation of Europe. I felt this was one of the first times He trusted me with something on His heart;His people. After this day I didn’t think much of it, sometimes the Lord would prompt me to pray for Europe occasionally, but just treasured that moment and put it on the shelf. That year for the first time I ever was introduced to Awakening Europe with Pastor Ben Fitzgerald in my first year of Jesus School. I remember the first time I heard him talk about reckless abandonment to the Lord and receiving the Father's love I was marked. That day he had an altar call to run down and receive the Lord in this way. At that time I ran with nothing else in mind other than I wanted Jesus. When I ran down, a heart for Germany was born and this was where Awakening Europe was located. I had wanted to go there years prior just to visit because my grandpa had lived by the Porsche factory in Germany as a young boy. Little did I know now that this is why I was going now, not for vacation but to Know Him and the fellowship of His sufferings. 

The next year at Jesus '22, Sister Pinea came on Behalf of the Evangelical Sisters of Mary in Darmstadt, Germany. I was serving in seating and remember seeing her and knowing she carried a love for Jesus like no other. She was invited to speak about simple love from the Lord. “To find His love and Love Him back.” She played a sweet song from the Sisters on a tiny old record box and the Lord came so tangibly on the field over simple love and obedience to Him. The Sisters of Mary are filled with His presence fully devoted to loving and being married to the Lord Jesus only. They trust Him as their Husband to provide and take care of them as they serve the community and love Him in his suffering and minister to His wounds; just as Mary did when she poured her costly oil at Jesus’s feet. Pastor Michael went there years ago and received this simple revelation through searching for answers for ministry, instead he found Jesus Christ and Him Crucified there and the love of Jesus was shed abroad on his heart. Jesus Image and the simple love of the cross through his life would not have been birthed without going to the sisters. They love Him like no other and radically prepare a people unto Him and for Him to receive in these last days. They have been built by hand, the wonderful art of Jesus in His Suffering; the 7 stages of His passion in the Garden of Suffering, and abide in simple love and devotion only to Him. They are completely consecrated with such pure hearts. 

A year later, at Jesus '23 I served in reserved guest seating and was able to welcome and seat many friends of God who have paid such a high price to follow Him. That year I had the privilege to meet the Awakening Europe team and take them to their seats. The following Sunday we greeted one another and a sweet couple from Awakening invited me to come stay with them whenever the Lord told me to. I shared with them all that the Lord had done in my heart about Europe. They said they trusted the Lord to speak to me in His timing. That same year I went to Paris and Italy with family for 3 weeks and was enveloped with intercession and prayer for this nation especially in Paris for many to burn for Him. I treasured meeting the Awakening Team and their hunger and fiery passion for Jesus but didn’t really think anything was going to happen anytime soon. Maybe years down the road. A few months ago I was just loving Jesus before falling asleep and the Lord spoke “August 15th-22nd” I quickly looked on my calendar. I had no idea why Jesus had said those dates to me but knew they could’ve been for Germany so I started looking at flights. Previously the Pastor from Bethel prayed for me that the Lord would provide the whole way and not to worry about anything. Afterwards, I went to Jesus '24 to serve with the Jesus Image team and I had the privilege of walking Sister Nechama to the green room after she spoke on comforting Jesus’s wounds and calling the Bride of Christ unto Himself. I was enveloped by the presence of the Lord upon her as if He engulfed her constantly because of her continual abiding fellowship with Him. I was quiet waiting for the cue to send her backstage. She grabbed my hand suddenly and said “Sweetie, just ask for a revelation of His sufferings.” My heart was pierced and gripped by Him. This confirmed knowing that those dates to Germany I had to stay with the Sisters as well as the Awakening Church. The Lord sorted all the details from then on was a miraculous favor. I knew He birthed this from His Heart and that He would bless it; down to discounted flights, full provision in abundance, being accommodated by the Sisters, and even a blessing from the Father of the House to send me off on this journey in prayer to fellowship with Him and to be anointed for service for His kingdom and His glory. After visiting Germany I shared with the Pastor there what I was feeling in the Lord leading me to move to Germany and He's been writing a beautiful story since. I've been submitted to a leadership covering and many are praying as this journey begins with Jesus. I was marked by the glory of Jesus and I am forever changed by what happened to me in Germany. 

Jesus speaking to me to after my trip in August to move: 

After coming back from Germany with my heart on fire after staring at Jesus's wounds  and falling in love with Him I came home resting after the long flight. I rested for two days before returning to work and those two days I was more of a mess than my two weeks in Germany, weeping starring at Jesus in secret. One of the nights I had a very vivid dream of my family, and the dream at the end my Papa gave me 200$, initially I refused the money but in the dream he said "take it and go!" I woke up from the dream and went straight to my secret place and I was just seeking the Lord on what the 200 meant I knew it was important but for what? I didn't think it was for Germany at all when I came back I had some thoughts about the Lord asking to call me there but truly thought it would be years. I submitted it to the Pastor and he said "if its the call of God it will stick on you and it won't come off", as I am seeking the Lord I think of nothing other than going to page 200in my bible which was the end of the book of Joshua. It was mainly about war and it wasn't really speaking to me at all so a wise world from Pastor Bill from Bethel said "if you need to get context, go to chapter one keep reading until you're heart feels something then you know what the Lord was speaking. So I start in Joshua 1 and keep reading to Joshua 2, nothing.. Then Joshua 3 I start reading and feel the presence of the Lord on verse 5 it says "then Joshua said to the people, Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do wonders among you." I started wiping because this word was so highlighted to me during the trip and was something prayed over me before my time at the Sisters. the keep reading to verse 7 its says "now the Lord said to Joshua, this day I will begin to exalt you in the sight of all Israel; that they may know that just as I have been with Moses, I will be with you." This is then when the Lord spoke to me and said "I want you to move to Germany" and in Chapter four speaks of the first of the month knowing I would leave the turn of the new year. This verse spoke so much to me specifically because before I left initially the Lord spoke to me through Exodus 33 when the Lord says to Moses "I will go with you, and I will give you rest." This was when I knew to say yes to Jesus. He has now confirmed with His presence, prophetic words, and agreement from leadership to go and that He would be with me. This was His invitation and now the obedience of Love to say yes and go.